A Hard Good Bye


My heart is breaking
A piece of me is being taken
Of this there is no mistaking
From this I wish I were awaking

A part of me with him is dieing
Inside I can’t stop crying
On my faith this is trying
I don’t want to see him leaving

He means so much to me
Always seemed to get me
With him my true self could be free
He is much more than the eyes can see

He’s much more than my brother
He’s always been like a father
For me like him, there is not another
I feel like I am saying good-bye to my father

I know I need to let go
But as I’m sure it does show
Of this, I don’t know
If I can ever completely let go

He lies before me in body
But of his soul, he seems empty
Memories of our lives a many
Through my mind and heart running

Wishing he could wake up one more time
To hear his voice with his reason and rhyme
To share with me one ounce of wisdom
Maybe to even tell me how this has yet become

To give me his brotherly/fatherly love
Sending us one little miracle from up above
Hopefully bringing us some peace as a dove
Now it is God’s move

I put him in God’s hands
On this I try to find the faith on which to stand
I know matter what his plan is grand
I just am having trouble trying to understand

Letting go,
Something I just don’t seem to be able to do
What I will do I do not know
As the pain seems to continue to grow

You live you die
I just wonder why
One’s soul has to go beyond the sky
To all with faith this does apply
Other’s forever do say good bye

So many I have left go
Causing my heart ache to grow
Feeling this does much more than just blow
How I will ever live through this,
I do not know

Trying desperately to hold on to my faith
In my heart feeling a wrath
Fearing, straying from faith’s path
I may be in the need of a spiritual bath
A cleansing of my wrath

Where do I go from here
I’m calling out in fear
Looking for the one I’ve always believed did care
For my heart is in desperate need of repair
This pain I need to share

Long for one who can understand my heart ache
For each other maybe some hope we can make
One who knows when to give and take
A friend, brother, sister who knows my heart’s ache
Of this they would never mistake

A person who get’s me
Who into my inner me they can see
Understand’s why a part of me just wants from this to flee
Why for me,
All this lose I just don’t want it to be

Someone to hold me as I cry these tears away
For many a countless a day
Will listen and understand all I have to say
For me on a friendship they do not want to play
Someone who will make it easier if even not okay

One friend to help me
To help me continue on as all this lose surrounds me
Helping day by day
To make the pain go away
Listening to all I have to say
As in this heart ache I do not want to stay

Remember him yes
But the pain may it be less
If only I again could feel some happiness
But my longing for him fills me with loneliness
And this I know I must address
Or I forever will feel this sadness


Copy Written By; Sandra Lucille