Sister To Brother

Sister to a brother
To me you mean more
There’s a place in my heart
It’s been there from the start
A place where my love for you lives
So much love it gives
You were always my protector
You never were my rejecter
As a little girl I followed you
So much I thought you knew
You have always been my hero
I never saw you even close to a zero
Maybe I was blind
I never saw you as unkind
When things all went wrong
For me you always came along
You listened so good
Always told me I could
You believed in me
Without any fee
Even when I disappointed you
This I always knew
That your love was unconditional
You always calmed me when I was irrational
Even in those times when no words could make me strong
You always somehow knew what was wrong
You knew to just listen
Not even try to be a voice of reason
You always got me
This I hope you did see
I pray for you peace
That God gives you some sort of release
Here or there
Losing you sometimes I swear
Is more than I could ever bear
But no matter what your love I will always hold near
I love you my brother
No matter what together or apart we may have to weather
If the time comes that you must leave
I know for you I will set and grieve
But a piece of you I will carry
So when I am wary
This part of you will help build me back up
Even when I think I am at the end of my rope
Remembering the wisdom you taught me one way or another
My dear loving brother
Will get me through
And I will find the strength I hope to let go of you

Copy Written By: Sandra Lucille

A Hard Good Bye


My heart is breaking
A piece of me is being taken
Of this there is no mistaking
From this I wish I were awaking

A part of me with him is dieing
Inside I can’t stop crying
On my faith this is trying
I don’t want to see him leaving

He means so much to me
Always seemed to get me
With him my true self could be free
He is much more than the eyes can see

He’s much more than my brother
He’s always been like a father
For me like him, there is not another
I feel like I am saying good-bye to my father

I know I need to let go
But as I’m sure it does show
Of this, I don’t know
If I can ever completely let go

He lies before me in body
But of his soul, he seems empty
Memories of our lives a many
Through my mind and heart running

Wishing he could wake up one more time
To hear his voice with his reason and rhyme
To share with me one ounce of wisdom
Maybe to even tell me how this has yet become

To give me his brotherly/fatherly love
Sending us one little miracle from up above
Hopefully bringing us some peace as a dove
Now it is God’s move

I put him in God’s hands
On this I try to find the faith on which to stand
I know matter what his plan is grand
I just am having trouble trying to understand

Letting go,
Something I just don’t seem to be able to do
What I will do I do not know
As the pain seems to continue to grow

You live you die
I just wonder why
One’s soul has to go beyond the sky
To all with faith this does apply
Other’s forever do say good bye

So many I have left go
Causing my heart ache to grow
Feeling this does much more than just blow
How I will ever live through this,
I do not know

Trying desperately to hold on to my faith
In my heart feeling a wrath
Fearing, straying from faith’s path
I may be in the need of a spiritual bath
A cleansing of my wrath

Where do I go from here
I’m calling out in fear
Looking for the one I’ve always believed did care
For my heart is in desperate need of repair
This pain I need to share

Long for one who can understand my heart ache
For each other maybe some hope we can make
One who knows when to give and take
A friend, brother, sister who knows my heart’s ache
Of this they would never mistake

A person who get’s me
Who into my inner me they can see
Understand’s why a part of me just wants from this to flee
Why for me,
All this lose I just don’t want it to be

Someone to hold me as I cry these tears away
For many a countless a day
Will listen and understand all I have to say
For me on a friendship they do not want to play
Someone who will make it easier if even not okay

One friend to help me
To help me continue on as all this lose surrounds me
Helping day by day
To make the pain go away
Listening to all I have to say
As in this heart ache I do not want to stay

Remember him yes
But the pain may it be less
If only I again could feel some happiness
But my longing for him fills me with loneliness
And this I know I must address
Or I forever will feel this sadness


Copy Written By; Sandra Lucille